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I first want to apologize for being absent…. again.  Things just went from bad to worse and at this time things won’t get much better for another month…but, I’m not giving up on losing this weight…just had other major issues come up that have to be taken care of first.

I so appreciate all the booster notes and messages from all my Buddies.  You are all so very sweet and patient with me and I hope all is going well for each and everyone of you.

One of the bad things that have happened is I have gained back 11 of the 41 lbs I lost.  I just want to cry sometimes, but it hasn’t came to that yet. With all the stuff going on in my life at this time, I don’t have time to cry…

A few other things have happened along the way and it just took some time to get through those things and there are a few more things I have to get out of the way before I can continue on my weight loss journey.

 I haven’t forgotten you, just been dealing with the problems on hand…so I hope ya’ll will be patient with me a little while longer.

 Love and hugs to all…Belinda 

To all my buddyslim friends…I am back.  It’s been a longggg few weeks and yep, I gained a little back but nothing I can’t get rid of.  I only gained 3.5 lbs even after all the cake and other things that found their way into my mouth…lol. 

The wedding was beautiful and went off without a hitch.  My daughter did all the planning and most of the decor.  It was done in Aqua blue and cream color…It was gorgeous!!

 I did two practice wedding cakes and of course without thinking I taste tested, licked the spoon and other little no-no samplings.  I had trouble getting the fondant icing on and after making several attempts, my daughter had to buy some more fondant…this time it went on almost perfect…but upon transporting the cake to the destination, it sort of slid out of place and the groom’s cake split in two…oh my!!…but, I was able to repair both before the reception took place…whew!!!

I thought for sure I would have gained more than I did and I guess it helped to keep it off because I also had been helping my son extend his front porch which took us a couple of days working almost all day long….and by the way, the porch turn out just the way my son wanted…lol.

Anyway, I won’t be able to get back to basically eating healthy until around the 9th of this month when we get a little more money for the house hold (I’m sure you all know how the money crunch thing goes…lol)…but I’m trying to be careful of what I eat most of the time.  Though it’s not what I would normally have on my diet…people gotta eat, right?…lol.

I’m still a little in a down mood but I’m not giving up on losing this weight.  I’ve come too far to throw in the towel and give up…

Thanks to all for bearing with me during my absence…I hope all are doing well and keeping up your good work.

We can do this!…we will do this!…I will succeed!…You will succeed!…”We Will Succeed”!!!!!!!…

                                               Love and hugs to all…..Belinda

PS.  I’m behind in my responses to those who have written messages and given booster notes, so I’ll try to catch up in the next day or two…

                                               Love and hugs to all…..Belinda

I’d like to say sorry to all my Buddy slim buddies that I’ve been sort of absent this  past week and will probably be absent for another week or so.  I’ve only been having time for a quick look see at my messages and read a couple of blogs here and there.  My oldest daughter is getting married next weekend and I’ve been busy, busy helping her out quite a bit.

Even with all that binge eating I did, I only pick up about 2-3 lbs this past week and it probably would have been more except that the fact being is when I did binge I binge out on fruits and Special K bars…a piece of cake here and there and chicken, so I thank goodness I didn’t pack on more than that and it is fixable…I’m not broken yet…lol

I so appreciate all the booster comments, it does help in my “little time of crisis”…and as I’ve said…I am not about to give up all that I’ve worked so hard to get rid of…

I hope all is going well for each and everyone of you on your own weight loss journey… I promise I’ll be back to my old self in another week or so, working hard to complete my weight loss journey…

 Again….Thanks to all for your encouraging, motivating and inspiring words…Love and hugs to all…

Where did it go?  What turned it off?  Why did I sabotage all my hard work?

I have asked myself these questions over the passed few days and I have no answers.  I just lost my motivation, my inspiration and determination for some strange unreasonable reason…but…

I refuse to give up!!  I’ve got to find the motivation and determination I had before.  I don’t want to be overweight the rest of my life.

Right now, I feel like crying.  I don’t understand.  

It started Saturday Morning.  I was working on a Practice Wedding Cake for my daughter when I absent-mindedly licked the spoon…and it went down hill from there for 2 days…that one lick set off a two day splurge…bites of cake and icing, Dr. Pepper, pudding, hot dogs, ice cream sandwiches…you name it, I probably eat it and nothing, but nothing, that I stuck in my mouth for those two days was what one would call “healthy” wholesome food choices.

So…tomorrow, the “I will” in me will take over again and I will have to work extra hard this week to undo the damage from my weekend splurging.

I can see my near future…

I am so totally motivated and inspired by all my friends and all the other thousands of people who have joined Buddy Slim.  This is a fantastic site.   I so appreciate all the comments and booster notes that I have received since being here…Thanks to all, you are all true treasures I hold dear to my heart. 

The stories and blogs are filled with hopes and dreams of people just like me who want something better for themselves instead of dragging around that extra person everywhere they go. 

I’m fired up!!!  I’m determined more than ever to lose this weight.  I haven’t missed a single day in a week of walking my 4+ miles.  It’s like I have a driving force behind me that keeps me moving forward to a better me.  I have never in my life been this fired up about losing weight.  I am going on my fourth month of my weight loss mission and I am overjoyed and excited about my progress.  Every time I see the numbers go down on those scales, I want to celebrate!!!  And what’s really great is my youngest daughter has joined me, plus a couple of neighborhood women have asked to go walking with us……Isn’t that great!!!

This is a quote I wrote that I say to myself, sometimes out loud, numerous times a day…I believe in it…I Will Succeed!!…

“I am motivated, inspired and determined…therefore, I am unstoppable….I Will Succeed!”

The more you say it the more you believe…say it to yourself and believe!!
Wishing all Success…

                                                      Love and Hugs to all

I surprised myself with my walking.  Last Tuesday I got this urge to go walking and walking I did..to town and back, a little over 4 miles round trip. 

Next day I rested, day after, I rested…and then the urge hit me again…this time around the block.  Where I live (semi out in the country)  there is what I call the ’small block’ and the ‘big block’…after figuring out how my miles it was, I could walk half the small block plus walk the whole big block and it was a little over 2 miles, soooo…I started walking.  Once early in the morning and once late in the evening…I have been walking over 4 miles a day for the last four days straight…but (here comes the “oops” part)….I walked the 2 miles Sunday morning but in the evening we had a cookout and (sigh)…I over indulged food wise…regardless to say, I “REALLY” over indulged…but I did go ahead and do my evening walk…now I gotta work extra hard this week to rid myself of my Sunday over indulgence…time to cut a couple of 100 calories off my usual 1500 for a few days and add extra exercise this to compensate for my over indulgence.  It’s ok though…Special Occasions don’t come around that often…Thank goodness.  I will lose this weight…I am determined…

Monday though was a “I will” or “I won’t” day…I had to debate with myself to walk or not. Monday morning it was raining, not hard, but still raining…the “I will” in me won…I walked my 2 miles in the rain…actually, it was kind of fun…lol.  

Then Monday evening, I was tired and sleepy, so I took a nap.  When I woke up, it was almost dark…the “I will” and “I won’t” in me started debating again… the “I will” in me won again…I walked in the dark…there was enough light from the street lights to keep me going…it was a good walk and I even walked just a tad farther then I normally do…

 The “I will” in me is my best friend.  “I Will” keeps me motivated, inspired and determined to keep moving forward no matter what…

We all have our over indulgent days…all is not lost…just pick myself up, dust myself off and keep on moving forward…I Will Succeed!!

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“I have the motivation, inspiration and the determination…therefore, I am unstoppable…and…..I Will Succeed!”            ~Belinda Parish~

                  “I’m gonna ‘Shine’ in 2009.”                      ~Belinda Parish~

Well, I started taking the drinking lots of water thing seriously.  I haven’t been drinking much water, if any, for months, though I have been drinking Crystal light which is mixed with water.  Don’t know if that counts just as good as plain water, but I was constantly drinking that…but now I’ve switched to mostly water, water, water, water…etc…and I’ve been staying close to the house for a couple of days until my body gets use to all the water just in case if  you know what I mean.

 The scales are still being mean to me…but it’ll start moving on it’s own good time…I’m positive it will and the the weight will start dropping again.

   HELP!!!     I don’t get it, I’m trying not to get frustrated here, but sometimes you just can’t figure things out.

 I have stuck faithfully with my dieting plan.  Watching my calories, most being under my 1500 calorie intake, I’ve even been exercising more than usual…but yet, the number on the scales goes up, then down, up, then down…and I can’t get below 211…what is going on here?

Then this morning, being frustrated as I was getting…dang, I ate a piece of cake and 2 donut holes…then I got a hold of myself again…and said to myself…this ain’t gonna cut it…so, I got myself back on track…at least I didn’t go overboard on eating a lot more…

Have you ever wanted to do something that you’ve never done before, but were to chicken to do?  You probably have.  Well, I did yesterday.  I got brave enough to go jump on the trampoline…lol…and OMG…I never knew just jumping on a trampoline was that hard.  I kept losing my balance, falling down, and all I could do was laugh at myself…lol…and I only did it for a few minutes…made my legs feel like jello!!!  Next morning my whole body hurt…but who cares, I had fun!!!

  Today I went for a walk.  At first I was just gonna go around the block, but my feet and legs had another idea and kept walking, and walking, and walking…funny how you can start walking and end up in town…lol…yep, I walked all the way to town and back…4.125 miles!!! 

10, 050 steps (I had my pedometer on..lol), it was great!!  And one the way I found a dollar on the ground, so I walked to the store and bought a bottle of water….Smile!!

I also burned 273 calories…so I burned off my breakfast (215 calories) and then some…

My new motto:  I have the motivation, inspiration and the determination…therefore, I am unstoppable, and…………..I Will Succeed!!

OMG!!  I got my scales working again and had a wonderful surprise when I weighed this morning…another 5 lbs lost…and I hope I don’t find them…lol.

I got out (after the downpour of rain yesterday) and went walking around the block  (. 96 miles).  It was so nice.  The air was fresh, clean and cool…I was dancing down the road with my walkman…Smile!!

I have more motivation, more determination, than ever before since joining BuddySlim…You guys are great!!!   Hugs to all!!